When Girls Get Bored...

Salam..

Never thought that I would update this soon, eyh?? Hehe.. Anyway, just want to say that I'm fine.. Thanks to all who gave their encouragement and all.. Yes, everyone has problems, don't they? It just depends on us to face it to the best of our ability. And, just to clear something up, no, I didn't have problems with my group members.. =) The problem that I'm facing is quite different than that actually, and it's a prolonged problem with no solution, at least for now. Coz right now, I'm more concerned with keeping the situation under control, rather than let it pull me down..

=)

Oh well, keep thinking positively, right!

I'm going to have a 6.30 - 9.30 class today.. Actually it's supposed to be on Fridays, but as some of us will be going for NACES (at UPM) starting Friday till Sunday, the class was postphoned to today. Anyone else going?? Naces is actually a symposium for Chemical Engineering students in Malaysia, where last year it was held at UTM. The thing is, it would seem that we (the fourth years) will be the 'oldest' undergrad students there, coz it was supposedly for 3rd year students.. Haha.. Never mind la, we added our names coz the quota is still not full.. No harm in 'chaperoning' our juniors, ait??

;-)

Moving on to other things, well, actually have been wanting to post this up for quite some time now, but dun remember why I didn't, so here's :

What girls do when girls gets bored.....



Taking pictures of unsuspecting victims.....


Writing... Or is it??



Nope, not writing... Playing is more like it!!
=p



Watch others draw her imaginary home....

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Thanks for reading!!!
=)

Fourth Week Update... =)

Salam..

It's been a whirlwind of a week.. I've got my thesis title already, and though I didn't get my first choice, it's still a blessing coz I still got the concept that I wanted in the first place.

My title :

Hydrogen Production by Industrial Bacteria

Oh well, I really wanted to do the one on H2 Production from POME (Palm Oil Mill Effluent), but, not my day I think.. LoL.. Still, I'm thankful for what it is.

And another thing, last week the group for our Plant Design Project was announced! Walaa.. And till now, we already had 2 meetings.. Haiz, hopefully will got to see our supervisor soon.. There's 6 of us, each with our own 'kepala' but thankfully I've had the opportunity to work with most of them before, so I think we'll adapt soon, insya-Allah.

=)

And, by the way, I've wanted to update a loooooooooooooooooooong time ago (read last week), but just couldn't find the motivation for it.. Funny, isn't it? Coz I sure had a lot to tell.. =) Oh well, what is done is done.. I dun want to cry over spilt milk.. =)




The last few days is already trying as it is.. Problems arise, again and again and again, and I'm right in the middle. It's hard to be the only sane person sometimes, and I know I'm capable of over-rationalizing some things.. Things that really matter to others might be trivial to me, but there's always some part that just like to torture myself, knowing that in truth, there's nothing I can do.

Nobody's perfect, right? But why does it feels like sometimes it's just SO hard to accept the fact that some people just don't even TRY to become better?!! Why always brings up things that in truth, never really matters?? And why bother to ask for my opinion when it's clear as ++++ that you just won't listen?

Nobody's perfect..

I know..

I just had to remind myself
over, and over again..

And maybe starts to question to whom
all my anger is directed at.

Coz it feels like I just want
to be angry at myself..

For not doing enough
For not being open enough
For just thinking that everything would be alright
For just accepting things as they are
For just hoping and believing

Very, very sorry for this pointless post. I just want to let it all out. I can't cry, I don't even have the will to write it all as a new poem for my collection, I just want to sleep, and sleep, and dream.....

Dream of a lifetime ago, when things were just normal.
When I just can laugh and not feel guilty about it..
When black clouds won't shadow my days..

Will that become true someday?

Will I be able to find that peace again??

Peace, it's not just a word..

It's an idea, it's a compilation of actions..

It's a fragment of our imagination when
sometimes we just want to escape.

From everything..

But I do believe it exists..
And I hope I'll be able to arrive there

Someday...

"Fragile"
by Delta Goodrem

Six thoughts at once I can't focus on one
Seven days a week but my life has just begun
So caught in emotion and I'm overcome
As I'm falling down I come undone

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel so frail so small
Sometimes I feel vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile

In six thousand years what will this mean
Words from the heart or a melody
So caught in emotion and I'm overcome
As I'm falling down I come undone

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel nothing at all
Sometimes I feel vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile

If people can see right through my eyes
Like an open door that I can't disguise
I won't be afraid from the tears I cry
I'll not run I'll not hide this is how I feel inside
A little fragile
A little fragile

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel so frail so small
Sometimes I feel vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile

Don't You Just Love the Rain???

Salam..

Time flies so fast nowadays, that sometimes I feel like I could never keep up. Still, it wouldn't do to lose hope now, would it?

*sigh*

I did something wrong, and I've been thinking about it every wink of my waking day! Ugh.. What if I never did it? What if I had the gall to think before acting? What if? What if?

So many 'what if's couldn't solve the problem. I make a mistake, that's a fact, and I'm never going to live off it any time soon. I will keep replaying it inside my mind, and I will keep on speculating those 'what ifs', coz maybe things would be different than it is now.. But, still, it's downright foolish to think that we could turn back time so right now I'm hoping that everything will turn out ok..

Wish me luck?







PS : Sorry for the lack of updates.. Just had the industrial training presentation yesterday, and now still racking my brain as to which thesis title I should choose.. Still, I will hope for the best. =)

Eyh???

Salam..

Just got back from Ipoh, visiting my grandmum.. =) So tired! Hehe.. Still, it's worth it..

Will tell you later bout it though, now it's time to rest!

Zzzzzzzz.....


PS : No class tomorrow! Yeah! Haha.. Get to rest summore.. ;-)

PSS : Happy Birthday KAMAL!!! Already got to part 2 of your 3 part bday post, but no comments yet... My brains is doing roller coaster right now.. Ugh, pening-pening.. Later, ok.. And hilman, I will try to join, but couldn't promise, ok. ;-)

Woah, A Makeover!!!

Salam..

Just went back from my faculty.. Hehe.. It's been somewhat of a routine that I went to the fac a day before the semester starts to get the timetable. And got some, although it's not complete yet.. Seems like we'll have to constantly check via internet for it. For FKEJ students, here's the link :

http://202.185.41.88/kelasfk/dynaclassweb-gui.asp

=)

Anyway, once I get to the first floor, this is what greets me,

A makeover to our Faculty (at least the immediate area to the new Pejabat Dekan counters, that is...) though it's a bit, erm, well, you know what I mean... ;-)

And here's some more :

Tiles... The tables had looks like its increased in numbers.. =) Well, all the better for us, no? Kinda miss hanging out there.. ;-)

This place were always crowded with students last semester.. Internship, offer letters, log books, name lists, the list keeps going on, and on, and on.......

New railings? Nearly missed seeing that.. Haha.. =) But, I'm glad nevertheless..

Oh well, really couldn't believe I'm a fourth year already.. It feels like only yesterday I've come through the doors and being the junior with 3 levels of big-bros-and-sis.. All the people I've met, those who graduated, those who remains by my side, my friends.. Haih, feels so nostalgic all of a sudden.. Haha..

Anyway, gotta gear up for this last chance.. May we all go through all life's challenges and be someone that we wish to be.

GOOD LUCK everyone! And let's make this year the best we've ever had, insya-Allah..


And thanks for reading!
=)

Friday Here I Come!!!

Salam..

Today is my last day at Nuclear Malaysia.. My, my, what an experience it has been.. Anyway, there a LOT of things to tell, and I know I have been procrastinating for a long time now. Hehe.. Was so busy finishing my reports, both for the faculty and the Agency.. Thankfully the faculty's executive summary is only 10 pages max (though I've exceeded the limit already.. haha..) and I've been adding bits and bits of info to the Agency one, so the only thing I needed to do was translating the english words to BM coz that's the faculty's requirements..

Oh well, I'm glad that everything is wrapping up nicely as of today. Met my supervisor earlier and got my evaluations in brown envelopes.. Hehe.. My hands are itching to open it though, LoL.. Hehe.. Just kidding.. But I am curious about it.. Well, hopefully it's all good, eyh?

Urusan Seri Paduka Baginda??

Moving on, I've mentioned that a lot of things happened right? Yeah, well, lemme go one by one kay.. First is my presentation at Nuclear Malaysia. It was a refreshing experience, not to mention I had loads of fun doing it. Nervous? Yeah, but great nonetheless.. After all, it's been a while since I've done a presentation in English so it's somewhat of a practice session la.. And it would be nice if my partner was there, but he already went back to Bintulu last Monday, so it's just me.. Hee.. Still, it's quite nice la.. The trainees I met here were all very friendly and quite a lively bunch.. Let the pictures do the talking :

Konon-konon presentation.. Haha.. Just acting though.. We were the ones involved for the session, so had to come early.. No one was there, so.....
=)

The boys of the labs in the 1st Floor (except for the most right, he's my partner and the one sitting, Abadi, his lab is near mine..).

The inhabitants of the upstairs lab.. =) Including Mr. Rak there.. Wondering who Mr Rak is?? He's the one with the shiny tulang there.. LoL.. The girls were very nice! Hehe..

The girls near my lab.. Nice people, it's quite a shame that I knew that just some time before their LI is over, so didn't have much time to mingle.. Haiz...

On Friday, I had to go to Damansara for the evaluation at Shell.. Didn't prepare a thing, and just went there just like 'bidan terjun'.. Haha.. So funny thinking back about it.. =) Nevertheless, I didn't regret agreeing to attend it, coz it's quite challenging (at least for me, lah..) and frankly, it speaks volumes about your capabilities to act in a high-pressure environment. I must admit I didn't expect anything out of it at first, just eager for some new experience, but in the end, I know what are my weaknesses and hopefully will try to handle it better in the future.

Walaa.... =)

There was eight of us, one of it is my coursemate sheng wa, and the others come from various places.. UPM, UTM, there's one from Miri (if I'm not mistaken la..). There's even one guy (from Kuching) who is doing his internship at Halliburton, patt!! =) Hehe.. But he's stationed in Terengganu, so you might not know him.. =) But they were all very friendly despite just knowing each other in the expense of one morning. And the recruitment staffs were all very helpful and nice.. It's refreshing to look at. Haha.. But there's no pictures, sorry.. Was too busy pening-pening kepala doing the exercises, but the food is great though. =)

The very next day, I went to Kuching! =) Yay, my first time going there actually.. Hehe.. 2 days is not enuff! But don't worry, I will certainly visit you another time yea.. =) And I will post details for the visit in my next update yea.. Hehe.. I don't want to unnecessarily made this entry a LONG one.. So, please, bear with me kay!

Thanks for reading!
I'm off to Warta for some late gift shopping..
Haha.. Till next time!