Thursday, January 10

Somebody, Someone

Salam..

Reading back the posts I've made at this blog, I noticed that the sad or black tone that constantly fills my earlier blog is missing. Not that I wanted to be sad, but today has been a very trying day.

I'm sad, and I'm confused. Sometimes, when listening to others pouring their problems to people they trust, and watch them slowly recovering, makes me wonder, would I ever do the same? It's hard to remember back to my childhood times if I ever felt so out-of-the-weather. Browsing through the various photo albums in my collection, I can't help but admit, I was happy back then. There's always a smile on my face. But why nowadays it feels so hard just to smile, really smile, without resorting to forced cheerfulness?

Is it so strange to want to go back? Being a child once more, with nothing to worry about. Not about life, not about people, not about myself. Innocence of a child is a very precious thing, now that I think about it. Once you've lost that, you can never take it back again.. But, as adults now, we have to be reasonable. We can't dwell too much on the past. There are a lot of things to worry about, and me being myself, sometimes worrying about something so trivial, take a lot out of me.

Today, I almost cried again. Why do people have to be so cruel? Why can't they think of the consequences of their action? Why couldn't people appreciate all the things others have done for them? Just a simple thing could lead to an all out war, is that really fair?




I'm sorry, really, for letting this out. I want to be a good person, and I want to be patiently going through all the things that sometimes would pull me down. I want to be strong and not succumb to tears everytime things happen the way I did not expect. But, one of those days, I just can't, and this is one of those days. So I did what I usually do, a new poem for my collection. Took me 10 minutes or so, but I think I like it. Hopefully I'll feel much better later today.


Anyway, thanks for reading. And wish me all the best.
=)
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17 comments:

  1. ZendreusJanuary 10, 2008 at 4:14 PM

    Awww... I don't know why you're sad, but CHEER UP! =D

    There's no point in looking back at the past and wishing you could return to those happy days. They're just warm fuzzy memories that you carry around with you and should cherish, not re-live.

    Don't stay sad as nothing good ever comes of it. Instead, think positive and face everything that comes your way with a big grin.

    Well, all the best and keep SMILING! =D

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  2. RinaJanuary 10, 2008 at 4:24 PM

    zandreus --> yep, i agree whole-heartedly. Only that, sometimes, wishing things could be as simple as it was back then. but, yes, gotta think on the brighter side of the horizon. thanks for commenting yea!

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  3. AnonymousJanuary 11, 2008 at 4:35 AM

    I am totally touched. I can feel the feeling you'r felt. Because I was like that too but a bit geekier though. Bye the way our blog names usually have a smell of negativity like mine "Days Without Miracle".

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  4. zura liasJanuary 11, 2008 at 2:18 PM

    salam maal hijrah..:D..jgn cedey2..

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  5. :: cheezzy cheese ::January 11, 2008 at 4:06 PM

    life is a bittersweet symphony gurl! rmmbr, life is soooooo beautiful.. even tho sumtimes is suxx!

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  6. FAIZULJanuary 11, 2008 at 4:40 PM

    i think it okey if you want to talk bout what you feel right now to someone you trust..at least you can ease the burden even bukan semua..

    life is complicated girl..what you can do is just go through with it..and we cant change the people too...wish you luck..

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  7. aria ayumiJanuary 11, 2008 at 5:52 PM

    "Today, I almost cried again. Why do people have to be so cruel? Why can't they think of the consequences of their action? Why couldn't people appreciate all the things others have done for them? Just a simple thing could lead to an all out war, is that really fair?"

    hope that u feel much better now. ;)

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  8. AKJanuary 11, 2008 at 7:51 PM

    people feel depress all the time...
    its ok to have it sometime... but just dont get holding on on it... childhood is something that we have lost, it is sad, but leaving them doesnt mean that we must change to different person... the innocent of childhood can also be applicable in today's life if relevant...

    kadang2 orang ni memang kejam, dia tak sedar apa dia buat kat kita sampai kita terasa sangat2...

    selalu gak rasa macam ni... cuma sekrang ni try untuk cepat bangkit bila rasa jatuh...

    like this entry... sungguh jujur... macam ko nak orang tgk ko macam ni, tapi sebenarnya ko mcam ni macam ni... macam tu lah lebeh kurang...

    apapun, cheer up! this is just a phase...

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  9. RinaJanuary 11, 2008 at 9:42 PM

    elvin --> really? well, glad I'm not the only one feeling this way.

    kak zura --> tima kasih kak.. skrg da ok.. =)

    yanz --> hehe.. yep, life IS beautiful.. just that sometimes we need to remind ourselves that it is, indeed. hehe..

    truanta --> thanks 4 da advice.. mungkin suatu hari akan diluahkan juga pd someone, tp skrg ni biarlah semuanya dlm ati dlu.. =)

    aria --> a'ah, feeling much, much better today compared with yesterday. i think i'm one of that person who feels better after letting my frustrations go. =)

    kamal --> thanks kamal.. ak harap ak pOn le cepat bangkit semula.. sm2 kte try k.. =)


    anyway, for all who commented today, and gave me advices, thank you so much! jasamu dikenang.. hehe.. alamak, cam Hari Guru la pulak.. =)

    thanks guys..

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  10. Mr FinalJanuary 12, 2008 at 12:48 AM

    Mr Final slalu terpk ape yg Rina pk.. kalo lihat zaman2 kecil2 dlu.. sungguh periang... tp.. bila.. sudah besar gini.. nak senym pon jrg2..

    Mr Final tgk tv and Ustaz Ahkil Hayy.. bg ceramah.. die ckp..

    "die.. mahu jadi seperti pokok mangga. Pokok yang tumbuh tinggi merendang dan manis pula buahnya, kate nyer lagi.. maka datang laa segerombolan kanak2 membaling selipar, baling kayu.. kearah pokok mangga dengan harapan buah nya jatuh. Pokok mangga tu berasa sakit.. dan.. melepaskan buah nya gugur.. hingga keluar getahnya(umpama darah)"

    so.. perbandingan yg Ustaz tuh nak buat ialah, sbgai insan kita tidak dapat lari.. dari.. sifat PHD orang lain.. dan, tp.. jadilah kita.. seperti pokok mangga td, walaupun dibaling.. dilontar dengan bermacam2.. benda.. tp.. tetap terus memberi buah yang manis pada.. semua... walaupun getahnya meleleh keluar.. sobsobsob.. ;p


    sori.. komen Mr Final ini pnjg lak.. hee..

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  11. JoeyJanuary 12, 2008 at 8:52 AM

    Hello Rina...thanks for coming by..

    anyway..is not so strange to go back...

    I sometimes have that feeling too...you know..I want to go back because I want to change the wrong the choices that I made...

    If I could I actually never want to be where I am today...

    Yes..people can be mean and so cruel sometimes...there's only yourself to save you....no one can do it...you have to do it yourself

    fell free to cry ..sometimes crying is the best way to unleash how you feel inside

    anyway...as my friends say..try not to think too much...and take step by step

    sometimes...you should let yourself enjoy the moment...

    ok...that's all.....matila speaking enggeris aku..wakaka

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  12. @LiENZJanuary 12, 2008 at 9:40 AM

    Kehidupan kita macam dalam sebuah kotak.Terpulang pada kita untuk kuar daripada kotak tu atau pun duk dalam selama-lamanya..
    Kalu duk dalam kotak yang sama sepanjang kite berhidup..bosan sih..

    Kat luar sane banyak lagi kotak2 yang berlainan bentuk..maybe akan lagi rs lg selesa..maybe gak rasa menyampah..

    kite kene terima yang dalam idup mesti jalan terus..

    yang belakang tu just nak buat kite sedar dalam kotak mane kite berada dan dah berapa kotak kita masuk..

    Lain kotak lain rsnya,mesti hadapi cabaran, baru syok beb!

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  13. azman | athenaJanuary 13, 2008 at 3:09 AM

    emm..kdg2 perlu juga berasa sedih..gembira, sedih, kelru, teruja..ini semua antara warna2 hidup yang mecantikkan lagi corak kehidupan kita..

    anyway, be strong yea..hehe

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  14. RinaJanuary 13, 2008 at 9:52 AM

    mr final --> hmm.. apa yg Ustaz Ahkil Hayy cite tu, mmg betul sbnrnya.. sy mmg kalau boleh, nak jd mcm tu.. sentiasa hadapi satu2 hari tu, dengan senyuman wpun dlm hati, hanya Tuhan yg tahu.. thanks ye.. hehe.. xpeny komen panjang2, xmarah pun.. lg best bc... hee..

    joey --> hehe.. betul, betul.. setuju 100%.. =) tu la, kdg2 ble dah release kan perasaan kt dlm tu, baru la akan rs lega, kan? take step by step, will try to do so. tenkiu2!!

    @lienz --> hmm, perumpamaan yg menarik! =) betul gak tu.. kdg2, apa yg kte alami skrg ni, akan dpt mengajar kte (atau bg pengalaman) untuk kte mnghadapi perkara yg lg teruk di ms depan. so, sy akan cbe keluar dr kotak sy sendiri n cbe mengharungi kotak lain dgn hati n semangat yg berkobar2! LoL..

    athena --> hehe.. thanks.. betul tu, kalau x, hidup ni akan trasa sungguh membuhsankan, kan?! hehe..

    neway, pd sume, thanks for commenting. will try to add some more posts later.. =) kalau boleh, nak tukar tone hearts in two pd sumthing yg lbih colourful. hehe..

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  15. @LiENZJanuary 13, 2008 at 6:41 PM

    Rina,
    SELAMAT N SEMANGAT!!

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  17. Patt IrminaJanuary 16, 2008 at 2:37 PM

    hello rina.
    Cheer up yea.
    neverthless, its ok to thing about our past. =) Sometimes thinking bout what happened few years ago made me smile just to think of it. All the memories, may it be bitter or sweet, made me who i am now. Cherish it. And always live life like its the last of it. Smile, smile, smile.
    *cheers! see u 2mrw*

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